GETTING OVER

ınstgaram: lizyrie

Hi people,

I'm back on it again. much stronger, much happier and less missing now. I'm getting over it and hope every one that went through something similar gets through it as quicker as possible. It took me years, it took me more than three years to get over it which I haven't completely yet. Although I wake up every night having the same nightmare over and over again, shouting and begging to the God to keep me away from him as much as possible which I'm pretty good at it right now. I'm not saying that I don't love him anymore, I loved him way so much to forget him, what about the hate ? I hear you asking? All those physical and mental abuse and manipulation, NO I haven't forget or forgive or never will. Promise you I love my self more than I loved him right now. You should never forget that we born alone and will die alone as well. Never love any one more than your self or give so much from your self that at the end of the day feeling used and getting nothing in return is not a real love than escape ! Far as possible. You don't have to be in a relationship to give someone so much of your self and get used by him/her. First step to get over is to get away. Do not stop and wait for this useless person to change for you cause people never change. What you see in the beginning will what you get at the end of the day, so becarefull with who you fall for. Sometimes, well most of the time people fall for people who doesn't really care for them. Do you know why ? Cause what you can't have is what you desire to have, its the strongest type of ambition.


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ONE DAY

One day, you’ll remember the girl who loved you so much that she forgot to love herself. You’ll remember her when you wake up, when you eat, when you’re about to sleep. She will be your greatest nightmare. You will be the one crying, and she will be the one happy with someone else.

One day, you’ll regret losing her. You lost the girl who did everything for you. You lost the girl who was always there for you when no one else is. You lost her because of your ego. You lost the girl who stayed by your side even if you threw harsh words to her. You lost the girl who tried to understand you when she needed you and you were not there.

One day, you’ll realize that she was the one for you. The girl who stood by your side even if you don’t appreciate her. The girl you chose to let go because you’re full of pride. One day, you’ll realize that the girl you screwed up and left for another girl, was the girl who kept on fighting and defending you when she hears gossips about you.
One day, you’ll see her happy and contented with the life she have when you left her. She will thank you for letting her go and for making her realize she is worth of something so much better, that there is someone out there who is willing to do everything for her. She will look into your eyes with no feelings for you at all.

One day, when you see her, you will feel like you’ve been stabbed in your heart a millions times for giving up on her. And when that day comes, no matter what you do, no matter what you say to her, it will not make sense because she was already done spending years of her life trying to make you love her as she loved you. But you didn’t. ©

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Crying in the middle of a crowd , because some other hand touched me rather than you. Just to hold my hand but I am feeling so much yours that I didn’t want no body to touch me, couldnt stop my self tears came running down. I missed you at that moment even though I have hatred and anger towards you I am still missing you...

I missed you kissing my forehead, holding my hand all the time, that big belly that I used to sleep on...

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Kanlı Masumiyet

Kanlı Masumiyet Heyecanla indiğim yeni limandan geriye bakıyorum...Orada beni bankta oturmuş bekleyen gözlere, affedildiğini zannederek gülümseyen dudaklara...Oysa çok heycanlıydım, yeni limanda yepyeni bir hayatım olacaktı; Noldu peki sonra ? Geçmişi unutamayan kalbimde fırtınalar kopuyor fakat güneş de batmıyor. Sanki tüm mevsimler beraber gelmiş, bense ne giyeceğimi şaşırmış, çırılçıplak kalmış bir haldeyim. Denizin ortasında kalmış çırılçıplak bir kadın; bir o yana bir bu yana çırpınırken batan fakat batmamak için her iki limanı da tutan çaresiz kadın. Çaresizce denizin derinliklerinde gerçeği arayan bir kadın. Sadık köpekler gibi ne denilirse yapan! Diğer kadınlara bakıyordum, belki boğulmuyorlardı benim gibi fakat nefes de almıyorlardı. Haklarımızdan yoksun bırakıldığımız için herşeyimi kaybetmemiş miydim ben? Toplumdan dışlanmış, itilmiş, kakılmış ve sınıflandırılmıştım canice. Sormadılar bile bana nasıl diye! Oysa ben o geceyi hatırlıyorum canım acıyarak; saflığımın bedelini akan kanı unutamıyorum. Gözlerimden yaşlar geldiğinde attığı kahkayı unutamıyorum mesela. Belki gidiyorum arkama bakmadan ve sığındığım her limandan dışlanıyorum fakat yaşıyorum, sizler kadar yaşıyorum, herkes gibi. Ne bir eksik ne de bir fazla. Sadece kaybediyorum sıfırdan başlıyorum tekrar. Kader çiziyor yolları, sana sorgusuz sualsiz yürümek düşüyor sadece çünkü sen bir KADINSIN. Yok senin itiraz hakkın. Ne yazık yüce Mustafa Kemâl'in yaptığı herşey boşa gitmiş maalesef. Başa gelmiş bir yığın boş kafa. Namus demişler herkes başını eğmiş. Neden? Kölemiyiz biz? Giyinme, süslenme, gezme-tozma; bunlar bizim hakkımız değil mi? Neden olmasın? Sen kadar insanız bayım, kaybettiklerimiz bizi suçlu kılmıyor.

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Freedom is what I deserve after the age of 20. I missed being free, falling in love and caring without thinking about what other going to say. Love is international , It’s the same in every language and It’s the same when it comes to living your love freely...

I can’t. I have to hide in to the corner in order to be happy and in love. Escaping from what ‘others’ going to say is just a way of killing your self. It never ends, they always find something to bad mouth about, you can never be perfect in somebody else’s eyes; even your own family...

I lost many friendships, beautiful relationships to be te perfect girl in their eyes, but they always come with another excuse saying that I am not good enough. At the moment, where I stand now, I am still afraid to find out who really am I ? or what I want...

I am scared to shout out that I am in love or that I love my bestie and It will never going to change. I have a beautiful friendship, that many of you not even familiar with, we’ve been friends since High School years. We never judge each other or get mad for nothing at all. We never break, It’s the srongest friendship I’ve ever had. A friend that knows all your bad sides and still loves you, a friend from heaven capable of helping you out with any problem. A soulmate or more....
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Dead Girl's Birthday

Tomorrow is my birthday, I’m turning twenty. This is my last teen day, Lets celebrate together today, lets drink together, lets dance , lets party cause tomorrow we will pray, pray for the young youthful woman dying in front of everybody but no body apprehending. Tomorrow is the dead girl’s day. White pigeons will come around me to hope against hope, for this lively woman to come alive. It seems impossible but they try, they put effort to protect me against all those black butterflies which seems colorful to me every single time I look.

I wanted, I really wanted to live the life I deserved, laugh with friends and so on...

Today I tried for the very last time; to live , to survive. I couldn’t succeed, I couldn’t make it cause you were there to break again

       Thank you for nothing love...

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Strong Woman

I am suffering , suffering from what I was afraid of; It kills me.Every single me inside of my self cries some says he made you cry there, some says but you were in love. I am afraid I am still in love with someone who killed me and used me. I saw a picture of you drinking and smiling and the caption was “ No woman , no cry J “ I have no idea if he tried to look happy or he is just happy, but one thing I know I am not going to give him what he wants! I can leave everything behind my back; my dog, my clothes, jewelleries...

I am a woman and I am strong, emotions cant bend me down , I am not turning back to the beginning once again.

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