Hello guys! I wanted to share my thoughts with you today,
It's been almost two years since I began dating a guy who even gave me a ring and got me to move in with him for almost 1.5 years. Now, we're not living together because I ran away. Today, I find myself at a college in another country.
This guy started threatening me about my past just one week into our relationship. He always made me feel bad about myself, and that if he left me I would have no life left to live and that even my family wouldn't want me. Months went by, and he wouldn't give me permission to talk to my family and friends. He made me unfriend or block all my best friends while he was chatting and flirting with other girls on Instagram and Kik. And when I found out, he would always beat the living shit out of me and told me he had the right to do whatever he liked with me. Accoring to his twisted mind, he wasn't doing anything wrong because I was a whore myself and that he was just acting in the same way as me, appearantly. So he made me shut up with intimidation, humiliation, pain and scars. I was walking around with bruises all over my face and body in summer.
Whenever we went out to see his friends or family members, he always started the convorsation by condemning, badmouthing me. Even though I knew that was not how the story went, I had constantly had to listen to him make up stories about me and make people believe that I'm crazy. If only they knew...
Because I was so afraid, I just shut myself out and stopped believing myself. I was so down, so lonely, so hopeless... Then, one day, my mom came up and said we needed to talk, "Just talk to me." I didn't want to open up at first. I was too afraid. But eventually, blood is thicker than water. Eventually, she understood the my bruises all over my body and said "We love you, we accept your past and you dont have to worry about it. Just get rid of him." Which I still haven't been able to do.
So today, he again threatened me by saying that he's going to ruin my life, he'll tell my friends and family. And you know what I did? I threatened him back! Which actually worked and I said I will ruin HIS life and make sure HE doesn't have anything else to hold on to in this life (which I can do - because I worked for the goverment of my country and they all well know me so I'm well connected)
So yeah... These were the last few years of my life.
Snapchat : Lizyri
Snapchat : Lizyri
