We Broke Up, It's Over And I'm Here With My Heart Torn Into A Million Pieces

If you've read my previous posts, you know what I'm referring to. If not, click to read:

                             Threatening Boyfriends - Girly Chat

                             My Mother Has Also Been Manipulated - Girly Chat

                             My Boyfriend Won't Let Me Go

                             How To Get Rid Of A Narcissist Boyfriend - Girly Chat

We finally broke up. He didn't realize how tired I was and it was his last chance to try and show that he cared and that he really wanted this relationship. And I realised one thing that I knew already; that he was not going to change. If he didn’t want to change for me, it's fine, so long as he’s happy with what he’s doing and who he is. But I can't be with him anymore. He is never going to be there when I cry. He is never going to see me, never going to buy me roses for no reason or make me the happiest woman in the world. He is never going to take me to a dream holiday and ask me to marry him. We can never have a happy life together; I know this. But I’m still heartbroken and fallen to million pieces, from the moment we actually broke up. I’m trying my best to stay strong and not give up because I don’t have two more years to give of my life. I’m already 20 and I would like to build my life from scratch now. This time, it must be perfect. I don’t want hateful or self-harming people, nor do I have tolerance for anyone who even dares to cause even the simplest, littles problems for me within the foreseeable future. I want to stay away for a little while and hope for the best...

The thing is, in all honesty, I had fell in love with him. I had fallen hard, I loved him so much and I still do… I don’t think it will be easy to give up on him, but I have to try because I hate him so much…

                                 

GIRLY CHAT: How To Get Rid Of A Narcissist Boyfriend

Hey guys! You already know quite a lot about my boyfriend issues already. If you dont, be sure to click here and get updated.

To be completely honest with you, you can never truly get rid of a narcissist boyfriend unless you sacrifice a little bit of your life. The type of guy that I'm referring to will treat you like shit, call you all kinds of names and when you get to that point where you've just had enough and you want to GTFO, if you will, they won't allow you to. They threaten you, they manipulate, they suddenly become that nice person you first fell in love with and then they promise to change, to not do it again. WARNING! RED FLAG! All lies.

They don't tell you that they 'love you' because they care, but because they are just too scared to lose. You want them gone? Let them lose. That's exactly what I am doing right now and it's just the beginning of my journey of breaking free.

He blocked me on Facebook, thinking that I'm going to run back to him and beg. I didn't this time, remained strong and calm, and guess who was begging this time? NOT ME. 

I didn't listen and I have no intentions to do so. This time, I finally see through him.
In 10 days I will turn 20, which I really don't want to,  I didn't get to have the typical, colourful teenage life. I didn't get to gossip and laugh with my girlfriends. I didnt get to go out and shop for myself. Instead, I was stuck in a mouse cage washing the dishes and swiping the floors for a guy that knew nothing better than to trap me.
Don't fall for these people, Don't fall for their kindness at first because they change so fast and before you know it, you're their slave.