If you've read my previous posts, you know what I'm referring to. If not, click to read:
We finally broke up. He didn't realize how tired I was and it was his last chance to try and show that he cared and that he really wanted this relationship. And I realised one thing that I knew already; that he was not going to change. If he didn’t want to change for me, it's fine, so long as he’s happy with what he’s doing and who he is. But I can't be with him anymore. He is never going to be there when I cry. He is never going to see me, never going to buy me roses for no reason or make me the happiest woman in the world. He is never going to take me to a dream holiday and ask me to marry him. We can never have a happy life together; I know this. But I’m still heartbroken and fallen to million pieces, from the moment we actually broke up. I’m trying my best to stay strong and not give up because I don’t have two more years to give of my life. I’m already 20 and I would like to build my life from scratch now. This time, it must be perfect. I don’t want hateful or self-harming people, nor do I have tolerance for anyone who even dares to cause even the simplest, littles problems for me within the foreseeable future. I want to stay away for a little while and hope for the best...
The thing is, in all honesty, I had fell in love with him. I had fallen hard, I loved him so much and I still do… I don’t think it will be easy to give up on him, but I have to try because I hate him so much…
stay strong
ReplyDeleteI will, Thank you :)
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